The fear to be perceived as stupid

“Whom will fear to be stupid is the fool that will not rejoice life.” ~ Sylvia Simone Gerssen

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to be seen as stupid and not responding in an average or supposed/expected way.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get confused when I want to be seen in a certain way, which is not my way, yet it is the way I think others/society wants me to respond.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to not fit in.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to already feel the hurt and stupid on the forehand when I see myself respond in an out of the ordinary way.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to restrict myself as all I am from the opinion that I should not be/look stupid/different if I do want to fit in.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel sadness for not allowing myself to fully express myself as who I have become.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use feeling stupid as my obstacle to not be able to fully flower and therefore being my own obstacle.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to know the seeds of living totally and intensely without any fear are within me, yet the fear of not fitting in and becoming an outsider is holding me back from nurturing these seeds and letting them flower.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold my joy inside myself in whatever form of expression this joy may come and not share it with my outside world and therefore not enjoying it inside myself as well as a reflection of my outer world that I created with my inner world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be me as I am supposed to be.

When and as I see myself go into the thoughts of I’m being seen as stupid, I stop and breath. I realise that I will never be able to live my life to my own full potential when I make up rules and so-called opinions off others about me that I made up myself. I realise that I have to let go of my own restrictions and be vulnerable and innocent no matter what someone else may think about it, that will be their path to walk. And so, I commit myself to let my seeds of joy blossom to be able to live intensely and in totality by building trust within myself and showing myself time after time that the fear to be seen as stupid will not lead me into being a misfit, being abandoned and to face loneliness. It is time to face aloneness and not bother with so-called imaginary thoughts of others anymore, to celebrate life within myself and share this abundance with others. 

One reply to “The fear to be perceived as stupid

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s

Create your website at WordPress.com
Get started
%d bloggers like this:
close-alt close collapse comment ellipsis expand gallery heart lock menu next pinned previous reply search share star